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This entire post is dedicated to someone who was so special to me and yes he is still a special guy for me till now.

We met at ntuc fairprice back in 2008 after my o level exam
I still remember first time i saw him was at my friend who also work at the same store with me but different department. Well.. it's a long story why we got into different department.

Any way, i didnt notice him nor he notice me.
Next few days after i work there for few days, my friend actually brought a FOOLSCAP paper to write down the prices so that later we can key in at the cashier counter.

He was arranging the fruit display and he actually thought that my friend is a audit as she was carrying a long paper which no one in the store would carry. WE WERE NEW! HOW THE HELL WE KNOW THAT WE SUPPOSED TO BRING A SMALL PIECE OF PAPER TO WRITE DOWN!

Yet, he burst out laughter when he realised that my friend is a new cashier. I was so upset that he laughed at my friend just becoz she brought a "large" paper -.-
That was my first impression of him.

One day, my chief cashier asked me to station outside the store which they sell all the oranges and cny stuff.
He taught me a few things becoz back then.. he was a supervisor BUT he has no right to control me becoz i wasn't under his department.
After taught me a few things, he said he want me to station there permanently because he does not want to reteach the "whole" thing which was actually a few things only.

He: eh, can u station here until Chinese Year is over?
me: ... here? so hot? serious?
He: aiyeah.. here actually damn slack one. plus i already taught u things already, i dont want to reteach everything to another person.
ME: ok.. u ask Hellen(chief cashier) lor.. see she want me to be here or not

Next day, he SLAM the door open the cashier office where i was counting money.
He: I WANT KOKO!
me in heart: did i do something wrongly? is he going to scold me?
He: hehehe joking la i want koko, can put her beside the orange there?
Hellen: LOL ... koko, u ok to stay outside?
Me: i dont know eh .. may be?
Hellen: ok, u tmr onwards station there ok?
me: ok

Next day.. i was so bored at the counter since there's no customer, i was drawing and IT WAS SUPER UGLY then he suddenly came out from his office and  came talk to me
AND he saw my ugly drawing and he LOL again, he found it cute I guess?

ANW that period was the best time in my whole working life. after the CNY i think i grew feelings for him and I'm sure he did too. But we decided to keep it quiet becoz both me and he had a very bad heart break with our exs few years ago and he is afraid of falling in love again. so do I.

After the CNY we kept in touch , i visited his place when he was sick.
We both loved each other so much
He finally confessed to me .
I was happy , He was happy

years passed, we did everything together.
Work together , eat together, jog together.
We met each other EVERY SINGLE DAY expt sometime he has to work night shift then we decided to not meet.
Sometimes, he will wake up early to eat dim sum together with me at chinese garden there
it was our favorite stall..
We loved each other so much that we can talk about anything and everything.
I felt amazing whenever i was with him. I never feel confident and comfortable with anyone else before.
He was the only one i did everything for him
And yes, he did love me alot
he did everything for me too
he was too tired but still accompany me go shopping or go out eat with me
he loves food and movies
We watched almost all the movies
We loved each other so much but we quarrel almost everything
both me and him never give up for 4 almost 4 years.
Now , it's time we both give up. we love each other so much both our characters not match
Our relationship will never work for us
BUT i dont think we both regret for spending our time together for 4 years.
Even if i were to turn back the time, i will still love him
i will not stop love him for sure nor he will
I dont believe we can last for so long BUT WE DID. 



The feeling of away from someone u can't live without is just sux!



Usually I thot breakup doesn't hurt much but it hurts like hell 



I M FUCKING ENROLLED TO THE NYP!!



Wanted to blog about this afew days ago but I was too busy with my school enrolment and everything

Regretting that I did not go to NYP :-(

RP school system sux big time!
Firstly timetable, EVERYDAY 8.30am to 3.30 -.- it's like fucking sec school timing pls!
Secondly, EVERYDAY there's presentation and reflection journal! yes EVERYDAY!
Thirdly, we have to walk across the field to reach school EVERYDAY! It's fucking far ok!

So I actually called up nyp and request them to actually extend the date line for registration.

Now my father don't want me to change my course coz the course that I m offered at RP is btr!

11/04
My love love birthday, It was a surprise for him!

Initially his friends wanted to celebrate his bday but my love love declined it BCOZ he jux wanna celebrate his bday with me^^ I know, shut up! Haha

Two of his friends SMS me saying that they wanna join us. I said yes of coz, not knowing there will be so many ppl.

After planning and discussing where to eat, what to do and stuff for many days, they finally told me that 9 of them are joining us!
2ppl bcome 9 ppl!! Wtf is this! And guess what?! That fucking bitch is coming too!
I tell u, it's the most difficult decission ever to go or not to go -.-

I was praying that she won't come sit beside my bf, end up she go sit beside me! Fucking cb.
My face immediately changed!
Bf keep telling me to cool down, I jux can't! I eat 2 spoons of rice that's all!!

She keep want go talk to my bf but bf keep sticking to me so she no chance.

Heard that Chris scolded her for keep pestering to leave me and join them for his bday celebration. My bf is the fucking best ok!
He is faithful to me lor. -.-

Anw, he promised me that he will SMS and tell her not to contact him anymore as his gf, me, don't like her. And he really did!!!!!

He even forward me the txt that he actually sent to her! Hahahahas I m fucking happy. ^^
LOOK WHO WIN THIS GAME!!!
ME!!!





Wanna blog about how awesome today shopping is!

Went to premium outlet which is located in jb, Malaysia

They all the designer from bags to hair accessories! There's bag, there's cosmetic, there's shoes, there's clothes etc... You can check it out at http://www.premiumoutlets.com.my/ and all are 100% authentic!

Anw, we were in the tracfic jam for FREAKInG 2hours!
It's from tuas check point till Malaysia check point which usually takes about only 10mins! May be less than that!

And i keep ask my mum "what if someone want to pee?? Ok, make it worst, shit urgently??" She replied, no choice, have to wait till u get out of this heavy traffic jam!

Seriously, let's imagine, if u want to pee and you have to tahan for dunno how many hours!
And usually, when u wanna pee and u keep tahan until you wanna shit!
That person will jux wan to kill himself/herself!

Back to the topic! Pls make a guess or test urself how much u know about me, what is the shop that I very first I went into?.. The ans is yes, BURBERRY!!
Sadly, chouldnt find the one I actually looking for. :-(
So we went to the coach and something attractive my attention!
A wallet, you can see the pics below!
And surprise?? My daddy actually bought it for me!! Nope, you didn't see wrongly. My dad bought it for me! =)
One wallet for me and one wristlet for my mum! :)
I told ya, he is the BEST man for me!

After that went to KSL, as usual, didn't have much time to shop!
We went to eat at soul garden.
And one thing I finally noticed, both my parents are now so called "senior citizen"! Sigh... I feel guilty that my dad still have to work despite his old age to feed us. Sorry daddy.

Anw, eat too much until stomach pain.
Feel like as if someone is squeezing my intestine! Hurts as a bitch!

Bought high heel as my old heel alr CMI.

Ps: I miss my darling so much. I m ignoring his SMS and calls :-(
All blame to my "princess attitude" and bad tempered!



Seriously don't understand what is the main point. Esp, my mum.
I explain things to her and she say that I m "rude" or "talk back" to her.
My dad understands he nvr say anything to me and she scolded my dad also becoz he let me so called "talk back". I really dont understand.

I m jux basically correcting my mum when she "accused" and or "misunderstood" me.

I really hope that one day, one freaking day,l hope she will understand. :-)

Jux now kena scolded bcoz I EVERYDAY go out?? Where got sia??

I was freaking at home ytd? And the day before??

Sometime I don't understand my mum.
Ytd I help her fry egg, she happy.
Today complain to my dad that I do no shit at home. I was like .....

And I EVERYDAY off my aircon before 6am, it become my daily routine, even if I don't open my eyes, I will fucking off my aircon. And sleep back.
I rmb, she compliment about this before. But suay suay, ONE DAY, I nvr off my aircon becoz I was so dead tired that I nvr wake up to off my air con.
ONE FREAKiNG day, and she complain to my dad that I EVERYDAY nvr off my Aircon. Wtf. Sia. SERIOUSLY?!!!

I know she is a good mummy, she is tired. She has to wake up early in the morning to prepare breakfast for my dad then straight cook for my family. Then she has to go to my sis house at cck to help baby sit. And after the long day, she has to come back and cont her household chores at home again, like, iron our clothes, hang clothes and all these. I UNDERSTAND!!

And that's the reason why I sometime help her cook or stay at home when she around.

I wake up late at 2pm or so.. It's becoz nobody at home, nobody come disturb me so I m sleeping peacefully.
Wait awhile more days and I can't sleep like this alr coz of the school.

And I make them proud, I make them happy. Now I got into the poly whereas her friend's son couldn't even get into the poly.

Now I go out more often is bcoz I that time got exam, I always in the library studying. I always do project in class and home. I didnt even go out. They knew, I saw with their own eyes. my dad praises me for this too.

Sometime I think that my dad understands me more.

Haizz... Sometime i wish my mum understand me more and don't make things so ugly or what.

Anw, today went to NYP to take my enrollment package and it happens that gg reach alr then my friend remind me say it's tmr then take not today.sianz
But then I went with my friend, gek Cheng. She wanted to appeal to my school so i jux accompany her.
And my itchy mouth went to ask the person wether i can take the package today or not then he pass me the thing. Wah.. HAPPY sia.

After that, went to the new shopping center at jurong east. The ice skating place like super big and nice. You can see the pics at below.

We ate cheese fries at there also, super nice lor, worth 5.40 with a drink.
After that Chris come find me at there and go back to his house tgt with Gc.
Then I wait for him study finish then he sent me home^^

This entire post is dedicated to someone who was so special to me and yes he is still a special guy for me till now.

We met at ntuc fairprice back in 2008 after my o level exam
I still remember first time i saw him was at my friend who also work at the same store with me but different department. Well.. it's a long story why we got into different department.

Any way, i didnt notice him nor he notice me.
Next few days after i work there for few days, my friend actually brought a FOOLSCAP paper to write down the prices so that later we can key in at the cashier counter.

He was arranging the fruit display and he actually thought that my friend is a audit as she was carrying a long paper which no one in the store would carry. WE WERE NEW! HOW THE HELL WE KNOW THAT WE SUPPOSED TO BRING A SMALL PIECE OF PAPER TO WRITE DOWN!

Yet, he burst out laughter when he realised that my friend is a new cashier. I was so upset that he laughed at my friend just becoz she brought a "large" paper -.-
That was my first impression of him.

One day, my chief cashier asked me to station outside the store which they sell all the oranges and cny stuff.
He taught me a few things becoz back then.. he was a supervisor BUT he has no right to control me becoz i wasn't under his department.
After taught me a few things, he said he want me to station there permanently because he does not want to reteach the "whole" thing which was actually a few things only.

He: eh, can u station here until Chinese Year is over?
me: ... here? so hot? serious?
He: aiyeah.. here actually damn slack one. plus i already taught u things already, i dont want to reteach everything to another person.
ME: ok.. u ask Hellen(chief cashier) lor.. see she want me to be here or not

Next day, he SLAM the door open the cashier office where i was counting money.
He: I WANT KOKO!
me in heart: did i do something wrongly? is he going to scold me?
He: hehehe joking la i want koko, can put her beside the orange there?
Hellen: LOL ... koko, u ok to stay outside?
Me: i dont know eh .. may be?
Hellen: ok, u tmr onwards station there ok?
me: ok

Next day.. i was so bored at the counter since there's no customer, i was drawing and IT WAS SUPER UGLY then he suddenly came out from his office and  came talk to me
AND he saw my ugly drawing and he LOL again, he found it cute I guess?

ANW that period was the best time in my whole working life. after the CNY i think i grew feelings for him and I'm sure he did too. But we decided to keep it quiet becoz both me and he had a very bad heart break with our exs few years ago and he is afraid of falling in love again. so do I.

After the CNY we kept in touch , i visited his place when he was sick.
We both loved each other so much
He finally confessed to me .
I was happy , He was happy

years passed, we did everything together.
Work together , eat together, jog together.
We met each other EVERY SINGLE DAY expt sometime he has to work night shift then we decided to not meet.
Sometimes, he will wake up early to eat dim sum together with me at chinese garden there
it was our favorite stall..
We loved each other so much that we can talk about anything and everything.
I felt amazing whenever i was with him. I never feel confident and comfortable with anyone else before.
He was the only one i did everything for him
And yes, he did love me alot
he did everything for me too
he was too tired but still accompany me go shopping or go out eat with me
he loves food and movies
We watched almost all the movies
We loved each other so much but we quarrel almost everything
both me and him never give up for 4 almost 4 years.
Now , it's time we both give up. we love each other so much both our characters not match
Our relationship will never work for us
BUT i dont think we both regret for spending our time together for 4 years.
Even if i were to turn back the time, i will still love him
i will not stop love him for sure nor he will
I dont believe we can last for so long BUT WE DID. 



The feeling of away from someone u can't live without is just sux!



Usually I thot breakup doesn't hurt much but it hurts like hell 



I M FUCKING ENROLLED TO THE NYP!!



Wanted to blog about this afew days ago but I was too busy with my school enrolment and everything

Regretting that I did not go to NYP :-(

RP school system sux big time!
Firstly timetable, EVERYDAY 8.30am to 3.30 -.- it's like fucking sec school timing pls!
Secondly, EVERYDAY there's presentation and reflection journal! yes EVERYDAY!
Thirdly, we have to walk across the field to reach school EVERYDAY! It's fucking far ok!

So I actually called up nyp and request them to actually extend the date line for registration.

Now my father don't want me to change my course coz the course that I m offered at RP is btr!

11/04
My love love birthday, It was a surprise for him!

Initially his friends wanted to celebrate his bday but my love love declined it BCOZ he jux wanna celebrate his bday with me^^ I know, shut up! Haha

Two of his friends SMS me saying that they wanna join us. I said yes of coz, not knowing there will be so many ppl.

After planning and discussing where to eat, what to do and stuff for many days, they finally told me that 9 of them are joining us!
2ppl bcome 9 ppl!! Wtf is this! And guess what?! That fucking bitch is coming too!
I tell u, it's the most difficult decission ever to go or not to go -.-

I was praying that she won't come sit beside my bf, end up she go sit beside me! Fucking cb.
My face immediately changed!
Bf keep telling me to cool down, I jux can't! I eat 2 spoons of rice that's all!!

She keep want go talk to my bf but bf keep sticking to me so she no chance.

Heard that Chris scolded her for keep pestering to leave me and join them for his bday celebration. My bf is the fucking best ok!
He is faithful to me lor. -.-

Anw, he promised me that he will SMS and tell her not to contact him anymore as his gf, me, don't like her. And he really did!!!!!

He even forward me the txt that he actually sent to her! Hahahahas I m fucking happy. ^^
LOOK WHO WIN THIS GAME!!!
ME!!!





Wanna blog about how awesome today shopping is!

Went to premium outlet which is located in jb, Malaysia

They all the designer from bags to hair accessories! There's bag, there's cosmetic, there's shoes, there's clothes etc... You can check it out at http://www.premiumoutlets.com.my/ and all are 100% authentic!

Anw, we were in the tracfic jam for FREAKInG 2hours!
It's from tuas check point till Malaysia check point which usually takes about only 10mins! May be less than that!

And i keep ask my mum "what if someone want to pee?? Ok, make it worst, shit urgently??" She replied, no choice, have to wait till u get out of this heavy traffic jam!

Seriously, let's imagine, if u want to pee and you have to tahan for dunno how many hours!
And usually, when u wanna pee and u keep tahan until you wanna shit!
That person will jux wan to kill himself/herself!

Back to the topic! Pls make a guess or test urself how much u know about me, what is the shop that I very first I went into?.. The ans is yes, BURBERRY!!
Sadly, chouldnt find the one I actually looking for. :-(
So we went to the coach and something attractive my attention!
A wallet, you can see the pics below!
And surprise?? My daddy actually bought it for me!! Nope, you didn't see wrongly. My dad bought it for me! =)
One wallet for me and one wristlet for my mum! :)
I told ya, he is the BEST man for me!

After that went to KSL, as usual, didn't have much time to shop!
We went to eat at soul garden.
And one thing I finally noticed, both my parents are now so called "senior citizen"! Sigh... I feel guilty that my dad still have to work despite his old age to feed us. Sorry daddy.

Anw, eat too much until stomach pain.
Feel like as if someone is squeezing my intestine! Hurts as a bitch!

Bought high heel as my old heel alr CMI.

Ps: I miss my darling so much. I m ignoring his SMS and calls :-(
All blame to my "princess attitude" and bad tempered!



Seriously don't understand what is the main point. Esp, my mum.
I explain things to her and she say that I m "rude" or "talk back" to her.
My dad understands he nvr say anything to me and she scolded my dad also becoz he let me so called "talk back". I really dont understand.

I m jux basically correcting my mum when she "accused" and or "misunderstood" me.

I really hope that one day, one freaking day,l hope she will understand. :-)

Jux now kena scolded bcoz I EVERYDAY go out?? Where got sia??

I was freaking at home ytd? And the day before??

Sometime I don't understand my mum.
Ytd I help her fry egg, she happy.
Today complain to my dad that I do no shit at home. I was like .....

And I EVERYDAY off my aircon before 6am, it become my daily routine, even if I don't open my eyes, I will fucking off my aircon. And sleep back.
I rmb, she compliment about this before. But suay suay, ONE DAY, I nvr off my aircon becoz I was so dead tired that I nvr wake up to off my air con.
ONE FREAKiNG day, and she complain to my dad that I EVERYDAY nvr off my Aircon. Wtf. Sia. SERIOUSLY?!!!

I know she is a good mummy, she is tired. She has to wake up early in the morning to prepare breakfast for my dad then straight cook for my family. Then she has to go to my sis house at cck to help baby sit. And after the long day, she has to come back and cont her household chores at home again, like, iron our clothes, hang clothes and all these. I UNDERSTAND!!

And that's the reason why I sometime help her cook or stay at home when she around.

I wake up late at 2pm or so.. It's becoz nobody at home, nobody come disturb me so I m sleeping peacefully.
Wait awhile more days and I can't sleep like this alr coz of the school.

And I make them proud, I make them happy. Now I got into the poly whereas her friend's son couldn't even get into the poly.

Now I go out more often is bcoz I that time got exam, I always in the library studying. I always do project in class and home. I didnt even go out. They knew, I saw with their own eyes. my dad praises me for this too.

Sometime I think that my dad understands me more.

Haizz... Sometime i wish my mum understand me more and don't make things so ugly or what.

Anw, today went to NYP to take my enrollment package and it happens that gg reach alr then my friend remind me say it's tmr then take not today.sianz
But then I went with my friend, gek Cheng. She wanted to appeal to my school so i jux accompany her.
And my itchy mouth went to ask the person wether i can take the package today or not then he pass me the thing. Wah.. HAPPY sia.

After that, went to the new shopping center at jurong east. The ice skating place like super big and nice. You can see the pics at below.

We ate cheese fries at there also, super nice lor, worth 5.40 with a drink.
After that Chris come find me at there and go back to his house tgt with Gc.
Then I wait for him study finish then he sent me home^^

Hey! Im hanthi koko/koko/jacquelynn/natadekoko/ah meng/monkey/blur girl/. was born on 28 June 1991. Studying in ITE(cck west). A blogger, a student and a daydreamer ^^. I m attached! :] love my bf.easily fall in love but hard to fall out of love :/



go 2nd year poly after ITE
his leg to be recovered =)
not to get hurt AGAIN
lose weight
couple ring! :)
couple mug! :)
1st week together
1month together
1 year together
2nd year together :D
wanna celebrate his birthday together
wanna celebrate my birthday with him
stress free!!
i want to sleep!
new clothing
coloured contact lens
perm hair
rebond hair
make up set
new bag altho i have a lot :DD
him
everyday meet him =)
be with him on the valatine's day :]
his love!
more free time
birthday present from him



♥family and friends
♥boyfriend
♥Hiphop and R&B.
♥Sushiand ice cream.
♥jap food is my all time fav food
♥making friends ♥♥♥
Xdid not go as planned!
Xanimal abuse!!!!
Xphobia of love
Xbeing alone!!!!
Xthe bad experiences that i had!
Xheart broken! >.<
Xhomeworks,assignment, presentation and boring theory classes really ;)
XLiers & Backstabbers.

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Alvin Sir
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Mr Wong
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Zarifah
Evia
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HongYi sir
lixan ma'am
Mary ma'am
huiyi ma'am
Eugene
Carine
Xin Hui
Kailing
Annaballa
azizah
mellisa
yani
Beatrice
shafiqah
leesheen
tiffany
hafizh
CAT
liling
Sherry
Alex
Yong xin
Chiew Min
alaine
Hao jie
zinlin
weichin
karloke
Ying Xi
ernest
ambrose sir
adam(rcyc'08)
Jie Ying
sis
xinyi
derrek
fino
nigel
gekcheng
elly
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