Saturday, July 31, 2010
watched korean drama the whole day after that went to eat dinner with family again :) after dinner, went to temple coz today got ceremony at temple. tried to meditated for awhile to calm myself down but then not too used to it, the whole body was aching =( after tht home sweet home. today the whole day i was thinking of him. haizz.. may be i m jux giving hopes to myself, keep hoping that he would call... keep hoping hoping and hoping but nvr come true. haizzz... i think it's the end of our relationship alr. sad-ed. somehow, i have the feeling that he is crying also. i know him very well, he is crying now... pls stop crying.. bye bye gtg
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Chocolate-d @ 10:48 PM |
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this morning woke up and had breakfast with family at jurong there. eat halfway gastric pain again! fucking painful! cannot eat finish then went back home. daddy went to the meeting, bro went to school, mummy at her room. i no mood to talk to anyone. totally no mood to do anything, no mood to smile, no mood to act like i m ok. i jux want to stay with my lulu(my dog) inside my room. i dun want let my parents know that i m feeling sad coz if they see me sad, they will heartache :( so no choice, i will hide myself in my room O.o but no worries ppl, i m still fine :)
well, been 3days he nvr call me nor msg me! good job! T_T last night cried like crazy. lols. i used to call him whenever i cry or break down and that's the reason it hurts so much. i shouldn't have called u that time so that i wun feel hurt like now. i dunno when he will call me again.. may be tonight? may be tmr? or next wk? next mth? or he will nvr call me again? idk idk idk. wad i can do is wait and wait and wait.. but sorry, i wun call him =)
well, been 3days he nvr call me nor msg me! good job! T_T last night cried like crazy. lols. i used to call him whenever i cry or break down and that's the reason it hurts so much. i shouldn't have called u that time so that i wun feel hurt like now. i dunno when he will call me again.. may be tonight? may be tmr? or next wk? next mth? or he will nvr call me again? idk idk idk. wad i can do is wait and wait and wait.. but sorry, i wun call him =)
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Chocolate-d @ 11:25 AM |
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Friday, July 30, 2010
been making myself busy so that i have no time to think and think and think. ok today plan was ruined by stupid quarrel with him ytd and i couldn't even control my temper that i went off frm his house. i was fucking angry. u ignored me! when i tell u that if u sleeping i will go home and u still act like u r sleeping and yes i went off but but then i saw ur neighbour kids so i went back to ur gate to lock but then couldn't find ur key! ok nvm, i control myself i went back to ur room and ya u got up alr yet u still let me go jux like that! disappointed! and i still hang on and stupidly waited for u to talk but guess what? u "ordered" to do something again! hello i angry leh.. can't u treat me abit better at this moment? . what am i to u? am i ur dog? nvm... i endured, i kept quite and waited again. i asked whether u want to talk to me or not and u didn't even reply! KO! u win! since u dun want to talk to me then what for i wait for u stupidly right?! yes i went back home! still say u "talked" to me?where got u talk to me? is u "ordered" me do smthing. LOLs then somemore instead of asking not to go, u even warned me. nvm i still gave u another chance and ask u to find me. guess wad the reply was? "nvm then bye" what the fuck was that?! did i even make u angry? wad the fucking attitude was for? u think i deserve it? honestly i dun think so. and u still angry? excuse me, i should be the one get angry ok? totally disappointed!
went to woodlands to find sandy. she was so sweet, she acc me! thank you so much. i couldn't go home coz once i reach home, i will surely break down! went to eat KFC with her to kill the time after that called mummy to meet me at lot 1 to buy sweater. she came and killed the time again until daddy fetch us around 9pm at lot1. once reach home, make myself busy again by preparing food for daddy and mummy. after that immediately forced myself to sleep. hahas sound stupid right?
this morning once i woke up, i checked my phone and didn't see his msg, nvm... went to school make myself busy again talked crap with friends! after school haizzz.... he didn't appear at the bus stop. i think he forgot wad is our plan for today. totally disappointed again! after school went to the lib with shinlin to kill the time again! hahas then halfway doing, my sis called me and asked me come over coz she is sick. i went over to actually kill the time again! watch Korean drama at her house. i can't stay alone if not i will break down. acc her until her husband came back home and sis actually wanted me to send me home but i told her i want to go home alone. so ya, i went back home alone. i dunno how long i can hold this but well.... i m not going to call him! i will wait until he call me. thanks sandy for ur concern :) she keep asking me whether i m ok or not. so sweet of u! i love you so much! no worries, i m still fine =) that's the reason why i everytime hang out with her :) i dunno. may be our relationship will b end jux like this? i dunno.. i really dunno... feel like crying.. am i so weak? i dunno i dunno... .
i dunno wad to do tmr since tmr no school i wish tmr got school so that i can divret my attention to my friends. dunno..
special thanks to sandy for ur acc and ur caring :)
gek cheng, janna and elly for talking crap with me :)
shinlin for acc me go do mme thing :)
peicheng for acc me eat at kfc
ok gtg, nid to make myself busy again. hahas sound so stupid right? yes i m stupid :)
Labels: waiting for ur call
Chocolate-d @ 11:07 PM |
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010
bored bored bored bored... hope someone will come and talk to me or acc me :( tired. gtg
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010
in class now and i m here blogging.. :D "Elly beside me. Elly very cute" typed by elly. omg. she praising herself! lols . she is scolding me now! scolded me fuck immediately after she saw me in the early morning jux now! bad girl! still say " u like right???" lols crazy lah she.. she thick skin sia. she said no one praise her then she praise herself. lols very fun complaining abt elly!!! hahaa u cute sia and her reaction was like "thanks thanks thanks" lmao.. ok enough of crapping with friends. time to do assignment? lol got mood to do but no more space in my thumbdrive :( cannot put my dreamweaver and stuff. =( is it time to get a new thumbdrive alr? actually i can change my thumb drive with bro coz his is 8G leh! somemore he dun nid use also. but then, this thumb drive is given by my bf so i must treasure it mah.. ok, i m bored, no more using phone coz no more bat, nid to off! sian :( but luckily my awsome friends is beside me playing with me. make me feel happy. lols :D ok time to do dream weaver! :) gtg.
Chocolate-d @ 8:52 AM |
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ytd went for NYAA thingy. they told us that we will be taking care of the traffic or smthing better? end up guess wad? told us to walk with those ppl! i was so damn fucked up man! if i knew it earlier, i wouldn't wake up so early in the morning for this shitty ass. i rather sleep at home somemore i frm boonlay leh, not near ok?! altho some of my friends stay further than me! wtf! everyone was like why the fuck they ask us to walk?! it's not like too little participants right?! thre're thousands of ppl.. fuck them lah but the best thing is got NYAA points hahas. :D after that shitty event, went back home to take a bath then come out. because of the some useless quarrel, we dragged untill 2pm plus then meet. lols but despite the quarrel, the heaven still let us meet. thank to his mum :D coz he told me to go over his house to eat coz his mother cooking nice food for me. if not i wun go his house loh then he also cannot come out to meet me coz of his painful leg! get well soon! lols his mum is GOOD to me! the porridge was nice too. she suddenly requested me to take pic wif her. i was like O.o then i didn't know why he was also like so stun! she went off alr then he told me that his mum nvr request any one of his girlfriends to take pic wif her. no wonder he so stun lah! lols he told me that his mum likes me a lot. thanks auntie for liking me so much and food u cooked for me :) after eating, home sweet home! :D
haizz today late for school again. late until missed the morning lesson which is MME! lols bf also got influenced by me of being late! hahas he everytime say being late is not good but now he also late! hahas. but i scared he will be late when we meet sia ltr i nid to wait for him =( usually is i late one lor i dun care, he cannot late when we meet! u can late for other thing but not when date ok! anw, managed to go for CMO at 11pm then home sweet home at 2 pm! haizz.. i dun like to go home so early lahhsss but no choice coz he got work! =( fuck the work lah everytime work work work then left me ALONE in the darkness! lol JK JK. but it's so sweet of him that he today work 2 shifts which means go home at 8am tomorrow! tmr should b his off day but coz tmr my school end very late then we no time no meet, he changed his off day to friday . AWWWW!!! lols i jux realised that almost every sentence is abt him lor.. lols this shows how much i love u. :D ok gtg.
Chocolate-d @ 12:03 AM |
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Saturday, July 24, 2010
ytd was a boring friday. stay at home the whole day coz he is too busy with his work! fuck NTUC! lols wished ytd was the same as last friday. FML. today is another boring day again. FML! gtg
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Friday, July 16, 2010
happy 2mths anniversary :D
happy 2 mths together!! :D lol finally 2mths :) played basket ball with him and today i very luck sia coz my shooting very accurate haha but still loose to him =(. lols. after playing, felt so tired coz we long time nvr play but was very fun. after that rest for awhile and headed for movie at bukit batok eng wah. anyone out there got any experience of watching movie alone or ONLY u and ur partner? YES THE CINEMA GOT ONLY 2 PPL WATCHING "HOT TUB TIME MACHINE"! and 2 person was me and my bf! LOL.. MY FIRST TIME WATCHING MOVIE ONLY 2 OF US IN A CINEMA! i think becoz the show is M18 and somemore the time was around 1 plus means 18 and above are either in school or working at this time. or may be the show aint good? the show was so lame lah pls.. waste money only somemore so expensive! 32$ per pair leh.. heart pain sia but it's ok at least had a 1st time experience of watching only 2 of us in the cinema! lol yeah be positive lah hor.. haha. after movie went to eat swensen. hubby ordered so much until cannot even finish lah.. LOL he told me that he will order a lot eventho we can't finish the food coz it's our special day. AWWWWW... love ya lots :* after movie stay at his house for awhile then home sweet home :) go home straight away sleep until jux now. haha jux woke up and my hubby pig is still sleeping coz he working night shift today lol. haizz tmr still got NYAA thing at school and after that may be going over to his house coz his mum cooking for us to eat :D awww.. thanks auntie :D
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Chocolate-d @ 8:56 PM |
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Monday, July 5, 2010
FUCK WINE! i promise i will nvr drink again regardless of what. i dun care. feel like punching things! i hate you MR WINE. dun come near me.
Labels: 1st time get drunk
Chocolate-d @ 9:50 AM |
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