Thursday, November 25, 2010
current situation?? ermm not bad, i guess? got back with him alr lol
tmr meeting him .. feeling so scared or shall i say excited? coz long time nvr see him alr
have the kinder first day of dating feeling. should i be happy? guess not. haha
not sure tmr will quarrel again or not le (ps: i m so sensitive nowadays lol)
today woke up in the early morning to go for the "ytd make up lesson"
after teaching for half an hour, the teacher went off for the "last min" meeting. WTF
it's like we came to class for half an hour after that the lesson start at 12.30 again!
it means, i got 2.5 hrs of break cb! dunno what to do this during the break of 2.5 hrs
wanted to go home then come back but no time alr so decided to stay in school
went to buy bubble tea with gek cheng and sulaiman
after that went to 7-11 to buy mash potato lol no wonder i m fat! cb!
played DJ MAX using gek cheng's PSP muahahaha long time nvr play psp :P
TODAY IS MY FIRST TIME SO ATTENTIVE IN CLASS!
coz made some internet wire cable thingy, interesting but though!
finally have some hands on work rather than some boring theory lesson haha sure will sleep one
or go fb busy with my own thing lol!
after schol cb suddenly rain like crazy
walk under the shelter but coz of the stupid wind, we all get wet! lol
winston was so sweet, he asked me to walk beside him so that i wun kena the rain as much as it supposed to be.. but still kena lah :(
he got so wet for me.. ohh.. so sweet! thanks winston!
Chocolate-d @ 11:12 PM |
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Monday, November 22, 2010
things aint going well recently
i dk what to do.. i m so lost!!!!!! >.<
i know u love me and u know i love u but why r there so many obstacle between us
baby, i need u here right now!
i need hugs and jokes like how u used to put a smile on my face
i miss ur laughter and i miss my own laughter
it's been a few days i nvr see u laugh
it's been a few days i nvr laugh too
ur little jokes can make me laugh like a crazy woman
i nvr laugh for 4 days alr
i m scared i dunno how to laugh again
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Sunday, November 21, 2010
when u say " i love u", i wish i would reply " i love u too" like last time
when u say " i miss u", i wish i would reply " i miss u too" like last time
but i did not say a single thing
i'ld jux seal up my mouth and smile or sometimes, i dun even smile back
u might think that i dun love u or miss u anymore..
if i were u, i'ld feel the same way too
i dun blame u for that
i m jux waiting for u to show me that u really need me
i understand that it's not the time yet due to ur health n everything but
i will continue to wait for that time to come =)
i know that u r trying ur best to gain back ur past nata by calling me and msging me
and even said that u will bring me to the place i always wanted to go
but the problem is i need ur "action"!!!
we really need a talk haizz damn ur fucking job! cb! u have no more time for me alr :(
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it hurts when u planned for everything and wait for the day to come for so long
the day finally came BUT it turns out to the other way which u did not expect
it hurts so much that u want to bang the wall and wish that u will nvr wake up
it hurts when u used to think that he will nvr let u go easily but he does
it hurts when he act like he doesn't need u
it hurts when u hear that he fainted at work
it hurts when ur heart wants to accompany him but ur mind keep telling u not to go
it hurts when u are all alone
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Wednesday, November 17, 2010
was talking half way
i also dunno what i was doing
smile smile :D
sitting alone :(
trying to act cute but .... haha
cb, the bang make me look so fat!
and my bag damn ugly. lol
Chocolate-d @ 11:21 PM |
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happy 6 months tgt with my dear :X
thx for being with me eventho i m rude, unreasonable, violent, hurtful and mean at times (altho i didn't really mean to )
but i love u more then anything else ok!!
another 6 more mths to 1 year alr!!! time really files!
today school as usal boring plus tiring
after school went to cut my fringe at lot 1 there while waiting for my dearest
elly was so sweet, she acc me for awhile!! elly is such a good friend :D
dearest come alr then went to buy food at pasar malam, my all time favorite teko yaki, taiwan sussage and shark fin soup for his dad.
went to his house after that haha
stay at his house until like 9 then went back home and dearest sent me home eventho he wasn't feeling well.. awwww... so SWEET!! muacks
might be working soon
jux now while waiting for him, saw one adv says nid sale assistance
called this no then talk talk talk then she say she will call me again
hope to get this job ba coz the place is at either cck or clementi
cck is near to his house means, i can meet him after work :D
clementi also ok coz his workplace is at there also.
if he work afternoon shift, i can go home or makan with him . lalalala.. i m so happy :DDDDD
Labels: half a year alr horx :D i love you so much :*
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Saturday, November 13, 2010
i m going to change myself to a diff person very soon..
been thinking how to waste my time. opps! use my time wisely
was thinking if i want to work or not but the 2nd thot was well, i can waste my time while get paid! but what about my studies??
therefore, work during school time is not a very good idea
final decision is... i m gonna use most of my time studying!
as all of ur know, i dun like to study
BUT for my own good and for my papa mama, i shall be studying like a nerd
studies shall be substitute boyfriend and studies shall be my accompany!! :D
i will study everytime i miss him :x
u have changed me, changed to a study nerd!! WHY?? COZ..
1st of all, i've been slacking since after the school reopened!
hopefully, my GPA will improve so that i can go to 2nd year poly =)
hopefully, i wun have that kind of feeling again
hopefully, i wun think of him too much
hopefully, i wun have time to go out
hopefully, i wun have time for unnecessary stupid things
hopefully, i wun disappoint my parents again
hopefully, he wun get nagged by me again
hopefully, he can concentrate more on his work since the Christmas is around the corner!! haizzz
i know it's tough for me... but.. well.. :X
Labels: time for the change XP
Chocolate-d @ 9:31 PM |
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i m going to change myself to a diff person very soon..
been thinking how to waste my time. opps! use my time wisely
was thinking if i want to work or not but the 2nd thot was well, i can waste my time while get paid! but what about my studies??
therefore, work during school time is not a very good idea
final decision is... i m gonna use most of my time studying!
as all of ur know, i dun like to study
BUT for my own good and for my papa mama, i shall be studying like a nerd
studies shall be substitute boyfriend and studies shall be my accompany!! :D
i will study everytime i miss him :x
u have changed me, changed to a study nerd!! WHY?? COZ..
1st of all, i've been slacking since after the school reopened!
hopefully, my GPA will improve so that i can go to 2nd year poly =)
hopefully, i wun have that kind of feeling again
hopefully, i wun think of him too much
hopefully, i wun have time to go out
hopefully, i wun have time for unnecessary stupid things
hopefully, i wun disappoint my parents again
hopefully, he wun get nagged by me again
hopefully, he can concentrate more on his work since the Christmas is around the corner!! haizzz
i know it's tough for me... but.. well.. :X
Labels: time for the change
Chocolate-d @ 9:31 PM |
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Friday, November 12, 2010
today not so emo alr lol
ytd went to complain my bf like a crazy woman
shut up, i know i m a complain queen jux like ur! hahas
he told me it was his fault altho got reasons behind! (was so touched by his words!!)
he told me he'll change (ok, i will see :))
today woke up around 10am then waited for him to fetch me
he was so sweet, he came to fetch me eventho he got diarrhea :P
went to watch the "due date" at lot1 as he told me that the rating is very high
was a nice show :) laughed like hell, must go watch!!!! :D
in the evening went to walk walk with him and played basketball for awhile then walked back to his house
walked until both of our legs pain as ur know that both of us have our leg prob :(
i love the time when we laid down on the slide and talk
if i have the power to pause the time, i would pause that scene!!!
if i have the power, i would pause the time when we have no quarrel, no complains or hurts.
ok, that's too lame!!! >.<
anw, today is a happy day with him again after so long!
most probably meeting him only on next friday. haizzz
i dunno if i can endure until friday or not le
i scared i will be like ytd complaining and nagging at my baby which breaks my heat also :(((
Labels: enduring and waiting for the change :P
Chocolate-d @ 10:34 PM |
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Wednesday, November 10, 2010
i dun feel like i m in a relationship!!!
feeling so damn fucked up
although i didn't tell u everything, why can't u see it right through my eyes?
why can't u hear it right through my voice?
why don't u feel it right through my heart?
i don't even get to see him thrice a week!
what am i to u????
i m not asking u to see me every single days but at least thrice a week, why not?!
always can't reach him when i need him like mad!
always can't reach him when i need him like mad!
always wait for his text or his call like an idiot but nothing appear on my phone
my heart sank everytime my phone rings
I GAVE ALL MY TIME TO U WHY AINT U GIVING ME URS TOO???
I ALWAYS REPLY UR MSG OR CALLS IMMEDIATELY
I STOP WHATEVER I M DOING JUX TO REPLY UR MSG
WHAT AM I DOING ALL THESE THINGS FOR????
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!
I DUN LIKE THIS KIND OF FEELING
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Chocolate-d @ 9:59 PM |
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feeling so lonely right now
missing him so much yet she can't see him is a torturing
can't see him nvm.. if she can talk to him on phone would be great
but now,she can't see him nor can call him as he is working
she is a girl who doesn't like to disturb other ppl which people says good
but not a good thing for her coz she is the one who is suffering after all
sometimes, i wish i could be an evil girl that takes all the things she wants
sometimes, i wish i m a selfish girl
sometimes, i wish i would only care about my feelings and not others
sometimes, i wish i would drag him out frm his work jux to accompany me
Labels: when she feels lonely..
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