Tuesday, January 4, 2011
fears never fail to leave me alone. thanks to my ex(Zero)
i know i shouldn't be talking abt my ex but ...
he gave me too much pain until i have the phobia of love.
i m too scared of being loved or fall in love again.. i m so scared
everytime i take one step nearer to chris, i feel the pain at the same spot that my ex bf gave me
it keeps reminding me of my past experience.
everytime i think abt my past bad experience, i can't breath well or even my asthma came back.
it's like the black shadow is flowing me all along.. i hate it! can u pls leave me now?
i m not thinking about zero nor miss him or wadeva..but the scar is still there
i no longer need him in my life coz i have someone who treat me good
i almost fall in the trap set by zero again.
that time he msged me saying sorry and he told me to give him another chance BUT
i luckily refused his apology coz i dun want to get hurt by him again.
a few weeks ago, i think i saw him with a girl at the swimming pool and i was like "O.O"
i thot he has changed alr i thot he learned the lesson alr but in the end he hasn't even changed a bit yet
i dunno why he keep want to hurt me again and again
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
fears never fail to leave me alone. thanks to my ex(Zero)
i know i shouldn't be talking abt my ex but ...
he gave me too much pain until i have the phobia of love.
i m too scared of being loved or fall in love again.. i m so scared
everytime i take one step nearer to chris, i feel the pain at the same spot that my ex bf gave me
it keeps reminding me of my past experience.
everytime i think abt my past bad experience, i can't breath well or even my asthma came back.
it's like the black shadow is flowing me all along.. i hate it! can u pls leave me now?
i m not thinking about zero nor miss him or wadeva..but the scar is still there
i no longer need him in my life coz i have someone who treat me good
i almost fall in the trap set by zero again.
that time he msged me saying sorry and he told me to give him another chance BUT
i luckily refused his apology coz i dun want to get hurt by him again.
a few weeks ago, i think i saw him with a girl at the swimming pool and i was like "O.O"
i thot he has changed alr i thot he learned the lesson alr but in the end he hasn't even changed a bit yet
i dunno why he keep want to hurt me again and again
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JACQUELYNN
Hey! Im
hanthi koko/koko/jacquelynn/natadekoko/ah meng/monkey/blur girl/. was born on
28 June 1991. Studying in ITE(cck west).
A blogger, a student and a daydreamer ^^. I m attached! :] love my
bf.easily fall in love but hard to fall out of love :/
MyWishes
Santa's Job!
go 2nd year poly after ITE
his leg to be recovered =)
not to get hurt
AGAIN
lose weight
couple ring! :)
couple mug! :)
1st week together
1month together
1 year together
2nd year together :D
wanna celebrate his birthday together
wanna celebrate my birthday with him
stress free!!
i want to sleep!
new clothing
coloured contact lens
perm hair
rebond hair
make up set
new bag altho i have a lot :DD
him
everyday meet him =)
be with him on the valatine's day :]
his love!
more free time
birthday present from him
Loves & Hates
What I Love
♥family and friends
♥boyfriend
♥Hiphop and R&B.
♥Sushiand
ice cream.
♥jap food is my all time fav food
♥making friends ♥♥♥
What I Hate
Xdid not go as planned!
Xanimal abuse!!!!
Xphobia of love
Xbeing alone!!!!
Xthe bad experiences that i had!
Xheart broken! >.<
Xhomeworks,assignment, presentation and boring theory classes
really ;)
XLiers & Backstabbers.